Thursday, October 20, 2005

More Than the Sun

A book I recently read asked the question: do you ever take time to just let God love you?

In the midst of my busy days I probably don't do it nearly enough; when I do remember to turn to God it's usually either to ask for something or to complain or to apologize for being too self-absorbed. But when I have taken the time to do it, it's been more healing than anything I've done to address my "father wounds" or any other issue in my life.

Music is a particularly effective way of hearing from God; the right song at the right time can leave me curled in a ball and crying my eyes out until my pillow is soggy and it's sunk in just a little bit deeper that I'm not a worthless pile of crap in God's eyes for being gay and for being unable to do anything to change that fact.

A few songs in particular have played a significant role in that healing process, in particular "More" by Matthew West:

Take a look at the mountains
Stretching a mile high
Take a look at the ocean
Far as your eye can see
And think of Me

Take a look at the desert
Do you feel like a grain of sand?
I am with you wherever
Where you go is where I am

And I'm always thinking of you
Take a look around you
I'm spelling it out one by one

I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more

Just a face in the city
Just a tear on a crowded street
But you are one in a million
And you belong to Me

And I want you to know
That I'm not letting go
Even when you come undone

I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more
I love you more

Shine for Me
Shine for Me
Shine on, shine on
You shine for Me

I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again

I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
Through the joy and the pain
I'll say it again and again
I love you more
I love you more

And I see you
And I made you
And I love you more than you can imagine
More than you can fathom
I love you more than the sun
And you shine for Me

5 comments:

Christine said...

Beautiful. Thanks for sharing so openly...

Christine

Anonymous said...

This song is amazing and I love to listen to it so that I realize that no matter how much I feel that I have let God down and/or myself down he loves me more than anything in this universe.

her said...

i needed to read this tonight.

thanks.

Anonymous said...

It's refreshing to see a Christian Blog under blogspot; I've seen too many refutational skeptics and angry atheists putting forth their 2 cents. I'm glad I got to share your faith, if only for a moment, brother. I hope you can always remember, especially in the hard times, that God will never view you as a worthless pile of crap, and that no Christian worth his or her salt will ever turn you away. You're one of us; you're our and we're your family. So blessings to you, in the name of Christ.

Peace be with you
The ChristiaNinja

Anonymous said...

Are you gay ad in happy or gay as in homosexual?